2009 reflection

Oh my.... How time goes so fast! The year of 2010 will be coming soon.

Just a quick reflection on what I have and have/did not done in 2009.
JOB
a. I can say I'm doing OK. Didn't get great achievement but I start to get the hang out of it.
Small conflicts with "that" person in office goes on and off, depends on her mood!
The distributor didn't achieve target though. But relationship and communication I have with the staffs are good!
I don't know why my PS is not proactive...... I wish I did the first interview with him.

b. On March 2009, I finally bought a second hand car. Which was sufficient for me.
It's in good condition, has AC, radio and tape, good machine. What else can I ask with a limited budget I have.
Thanks to office that support me with transportation allowance. It was a hard decision to get the money for down payment. But as usual, God let me get it!

c. New top management doesn't give the thrill. Business is kinda slow for the last 4 months.
Like a friend said, I'm just surviving in this company.



OWN BUSINESS and INTERNET MARKETING
I haven't been active in my Asian Brain community for several months. My websites and blogs have been neglected as I'm busy with office work.
So Google Page Ranking of my blogs disappeared! Order to write reviews was almost none......

But, in August 2009, I launched my online beauty shop. I felt I needed to start now and not wait too long, and don't be carried away with the job I have.

Yes, I need to watch my expenses right now since I need the money to buy beauty stuffs for my beauty shop. Orders coming in slowly, but I can see it will grow and flourish!
I have vision in my head what to do next.
It feels good to see happy customers, MY OWN customers!

I also start active in Asian Brain offline gathering for the last 2 months to see what's happening. And it was good!
My sister, who I have been motivating to get extra income by selling some thing, has finally found her own way. She's selling batik now at Facebook, hahaha......
Check out the batik style in her album.



FINANCE
- The company pays me good salary :)
- The salary I use to pay the credit card debts. And I also managed to ask discounts to credit card company so I can settle the debt sooner.
- I still have no saving yet..... and my insurance hasn't been paid for sometimes. I hope the insurance isn't terminated yet.


HEALTH
I'm not fit and healthy!
I stopped going to the gym since March or April 2009 due to my back pain problem.
Then I get cold easily but recover in long period of time (that sucks).
I had a long cold in August 2009, then coughing started in mid September 2009, and not treated yet.
And after I came back from my overseas trip, now I have middle ear accute infection!
I haven't done blood test for months too.............
I think everything started from the emotions and feelings and pressure that I'm having.
Stress from work, pressure to have own business, and emotional experience with my love life.
I have to do something so I can regain the health level I should be at.


LOVE LIFE
I didn't get married, again. It's just getting difficult and I don't want to be pushy with my partner. If we are not meant, then we are not. I didn't prefer his attitude, though.
I don't think I will be rushing to get new relationship. I'm kinda reluctant and sick to think about it......Eekkks...

I'm grateful

I'm really grateful of what I have, what I receive from my Creator.
I drive a car, while others go on foot, by bike, or squeezed in the bus.
I travel to new places, while others only stays in their place.
There are people, selling stuff by going around my housing complex and carrying the goods, while I go visit hospitals.

I can't complaint. Everyday I wake up in the morning, it means my Creator gives me chance to do useful things in my life.

You Don't Know How Good Your Life Is...

Have you ever thought that you are the most misserable person in the world?
Life has never been fair, burden is too heavy, salary is too small, etc.

Check out these photos!

Hidup Anda susah? Bagaimana dengan mereka?

Pekerjaan Anda terlalu berat? Dibanding dengan Anak ini lebih berat mana?

Your salary amount is small? It may be big for this child.

Don't have any friends? This soldier's got a friend, but not a human.

Too lazy to go to school? You must be ashamed....

Menyerah? Lihat orang tua ini

Hidup Anda menderita? Mungkin orang ini lebih menderita dibanding Anda

Sering marah gara-gara jalanan becek/berlubang di perumahan Anda? Bagaimana dengan mereka?

Got heavy work? Look at this lady.

It turns out you're life is still better, my friends.

Business enemy becomes a co-partner?

Well, well, you can't predict what would happen in the future!

When I consider this institution (with the whole of its employers) is something I want to avoid, I learned that I may work together (event though not directly) with it!

Why? Because it has become the partner of my employee. So I've gotta put myself in a neutral position, put on my smiley face and become friendly. I had to shake their hands and sat on the same table with 'em. Goodness........

Life is all about surprises. Be prepared of the unexpected.

A CHAT WITH GOD (July 10, 2006)

Maybe this will remind me about life. After what I have been through for a couple of weeks, I need to be motivated and encouraged. Be my-normal-self again.

Only HIM can help me.

A CHAT WITH GOD

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I Am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still cant figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you Some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons(to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Business ENEMY (August 24, 2006)

Take my words here:

Never get close to your enemies

Never get any contact with enemies

Never give out any things that belongs to you to enemies

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I had terrible news yesterday about my on going project. Allah, why the project can't go smoothly?
There's always something on the way. The presentation, the jealous competitors, the betrayed subdealer, etc. We made wrong decision to give our quotation to the competitor. You will be wondering what the heck were we thinking? Well, not me......... I would never never make any contact with my competitor, especially give them my quotation and price!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heck NO!

When I was still an athlete, I would never said hi to my opponent or ex opponent outside arena. I would never smiled, never shake their hands........If I started to make some contact, it would lead to a "relationship", then I must chit chat or whatever things that I didn't want have at the first place.

See, now what happen when you trust people easily and too greedy of something..........
I have warned my boss, Henry has warned my boss.......Yeah him.......the big B.
The jealous competitor used it to go against us.

I will never give up cos I'm at the right side.

Touching Story with A Taxi Driver (Nov 4, 2007)

I was in Surabaya to accompany Dr. HF for tumor surgery using our ultrasonic aspirator.

To go to airport, I used taxi. It was still morning. On my way to airport, the taxi driver started a conversation with me.
He asked me the purpose in Surabaya, etc. He was a nice person, so I didn't mind entertain his conversation.
I told him about my work, my family (parents and sister). He was empathy to hear my story. He said I'm blessed.

Then he told me his story.
He regret for what he did in the past. He was a naughty boy, disobeyed parents, was a rebel. He went to the best school, didn't study good. He dropped out. While his siblings are college graduates. He felt embarrassed whenever the family gathers.
He's living difficult life now with his own family. His kids start going to school and all.

At the end, he prayed for me and wish me all the best. It was a touching moment.