Two laptops stolen!

This topic was posted in my health and beauty blog because I have taken the pictures of the products I bought in Singpore last week and saved them in my laptop. All I have to do was edit the photos.

Since this blog is about my raging emotions, so this is the right time to be furious!
Yesterday afternoon I got a call from my sister saying that we both have lost our laptops!

A stranger came to our house, talked to our maid and saying as if he really knew me and my brother in law and he was instructed by my bro-in-law to pick my laptop because he broke it and asked this guy to fix it. To make the story short, I think my maid was hypnotized by this jerk, because he swore to her that he was doing our instruction and then she was asked to stare at his eyes.
She couldn't remember what has happened and who actually pick the laptops out of the storage place.
When she then conscious, she remembered that she needed to call my bro-in-law to check the truth of his story, but the jerk has left!
She doesn't have my bro-in-law mobile number, so she called me and my sis, but somehow she couldn't get thru... And I didn't see any incoming calls from her on my screen.

He didn't take anything else beside the laptop units.
So odd.... He knew that my bro-in-law work in other town, and he usually comes home in the weekend. He knew that I'm called "bude" or auntie at home. He knew what type of my sister's laptop, the brand, and where sis keep it. My maid didn't know where my sis' laptop is!

Well, this is the second time I got robbed within 4 months. The first was on May 3, when my blackberry was stolen from my car under my nose......

It's sad because we needed the laptop to start and build our online business. We plan to resign from our jobs. My sister had taken time to save the money to buy that laptop.
And to know that a strange has been into our rooms and touched our stuffs???? Scarry!
Our privacy has been violated!
The house is the place where it should be the safest place for us and our family to live in. But look what has happened!

I only have my office laptop now and I'm not allowed to install any softwares for personal use.

To my friends, be careful out there, crime is everywhere!

All I can say is gratitude to God that the kids (my niece and nephew) are safe. We need to protect ourselves more now.

Too many things to think, I broke down!

I was frustrated!
Dreamed of my late father, like he wanted to show me something. Maybe show my mistake....
Cried the whole day! Eyes hurt.

2009 reflection

Oh my.... How time goes so fast! The year of 2010 will be coming soon.

Just a quick reflection on what I have and have/did not done in 2009.
JOB
a. I can say I'm doing OK. Didn't get great achievement but I start to get the hang out of it.
Small conflicts with "that" person in office goes on and off, depends on her mood!
The distributor didn't achieve target though. But relationship and communication I have with the staffs are good!
I don't know why my PS is not proactive...... I wish I did the first interview with him.

b. On March 2009, I finally bought a second hand car. Which was sufficient for me.
It's in good condition, has AC, radio and tape, good machine. What else can I ask with a limited budget I have.
Thanks to office that support me with transportation allowance. It was a hard decision to get the money for down payment. But as usual, God let me get it!

c. New top management doesn't give the thrill. Business is kinda slow for the last 4 months.
Like a friend said, I'm just surviving in this company.



OWN BUSINESS and INTERNET MARKETING
I haven't been active in my Asian Brain community for several months. My websites and blogs have been neglected as I'm busy with office work.
So Google Page Ranking of my blogs disappeared! Order to write reviews was almost none......

But, in August 2009, I launched my online beauty shop. I felt I needed to start now and not wait too long, and don't be carried away with the job I have.

Yes, I need to watch my expenses right now since I need the money to buy beauty stuffs for my beauty shop. Orders coming in slowly, but I can see it will grow and flourish!
I have vision in my head what to do next.
It feels good to see happy customers, MY OWN customers!

I also start active in Asian Brain offline gathering for the last 2 months to see what's happening. And it was good!
My sister, who I have been motivating to get extra income by selling some thing, has finally found her own way. She's selling batik now at Facebook, hahaha......
Check out the batik style in her album.



FINANCE
- The company pays me good salary :)
- The salary I use to pay the credit card debts. And I also managed to ask discounts to credit card company so I can settle the debt sooner.
- I still have no saving yet..... and my insurance hasn't been paid for sometimes. I hope the insurance isn't terminated yet.


HEALTH
I'm not fit and healthy!
I stopped going to the gym since March or April 2009 due to my back pain problem.
Then I get cold easily but recover in long period of time (that sucks).
I had a long cold in August 2009, then coughing started in mid September 2009, and not treated yet.
And after I came back from my overseas trip, now I have middle ear accute infection!
I haven't done blood test for months too.............
I think everything started from the emotions and feelings and pressure that I'm having.
Stress from work, pressure to have own business, and emotional experience with my love life.
I have to do something so I can regain the health level I should be at.


LOVE LIFE
I didn't get married, again. It's just getting difficult and I don't want to be pushy with my partner. If we are not meant, then we are not. I didn't prefer his attitude, though.
I don't think I will be rushing to get new relationship. I'm kinda reluctant and sick to think about it......Eekkks...

Isolated and irritated

Never thought that being sick (just flu and coughing) my colleagues would treat me in such a way.
It was also interesting because, as I said, colleagues will remain colleagues. It's rarely to have friendship with them.
Well, I get along with them at work, but not that comfortable as room mate. Each of us has different habits when we are in our own home.

So, we were on a trip last November.
My division had selling skill training in KL, Malaysia. Therefore I shared a room with Mrs. N.
I have been sharing room with her several times. So far, we were OK.
But then, my coughing got worse and then I started to catch a cold during the trip.
She then kept her distance because she said she didn't want to get sick. She just came from one month training in Shanghai, which at that time climate change was extreme. Of course, the reason was understandable, but it's how she conveyed the message and her objection.
She didn't want to sit near me in the van, and she asked for far plane seat when we were going to Bangkok from KL.
Ah, she should remember how sick she was when we traveled in last April. She couldn't walk due to her gout. But then, it wasn't contagious >_<

In Thailand, I had different room mate. She and Mrs. N switch their places because Mrs.R doesn't know her room mate from Philippines and Mrs. N knows her well. (actually, both of them are at similar age as mine, but I addressed them because they're married, lol).
It was my first time sharing a room with Mrs. R. So far, I mingle well with her.
But, sometimes she's pushy.
On the last day of the meeting, I couldn't stand anymore. I had headache and my asthma just reoccurred. The team was sitting at round table having discussion. I was waiting for my turn to discuss with the manager. Mrs. R kept asking me to go to see a doctor, she started to irritate me because I knew I needed to go soon, but I needed to finish my part first before I'm gone. Grrrr.......
To make me more irritated, when I was going nearer to manager to start the discussion, and he found out I was having cold, he asked me not to sit near.
I'm kinda feel embarassed!

This post doesn't really show how I felt at that time!

My own biz: The Mu Company

My emotions and feeling nowadays are raging. I keep thinking about having my own business and it's frustrated because I haven't had a chance (or you can say: too lazy ) to work on my personal goals.
Every night I go online just to check out products and do some research, but I haven't compiled them in a business plan! All of the materials are in my head, I should have started writing and just do it! Don't think.

I've found what my company name will be: The Mu Company. Well, the "mu" should be pronounced "mew" as it's taken from one of Greek Alphabet.

Why I decided to use the name?
Well, first of all, I'm obsessed with mineral make up since a year ago.
I was thinking to name the business "Mirna's Mineral Make Up" = M3U. If you pronounce it, M3U is like "mew", right?
Then I recalled that there's a Greek alphabet with similar pronunciation. Boy, I was right!
It's the M alphabet. See the picture below?

Mu (uppercase Μ, lowercase μ; Greek: Μι or Μυ [mi]) is the 12th letter of the Greek alphabet. Mu was derived from the Egyptian hieroglyphic symbol for water () which had been simplified by the Phoenicians and named after their word for water, to become Mem
The letter Mu appears in conjunction with alpha and omega to signify the "beginning, middle (meson) and end", a phrase found in an Orphic verse describing Zeus, and later adopted to describe both JHWH and Jesus.

It's perfect, cos my name begins with M.

Facts that support my decision:
1. M, the initial of my name
2. In the system of Greek numerals it has a value of 40. Do you know what it means? That I must reach successful and enjoy it at the age of 40. Wow....
3. Middle, yup indeed. I'm in the middle of my life age now, I'm 32 years old.
4. Mu, in Indonesian is a short from "kamu", means you. My company is focus on you, my customers.

The Mu Company may have several divisions. For example, I can have The Mu Health Store, The Mu Cosmetics, The Mu Consultants, the possibility is unlimited!

For the products I'll sell, I'll start from health product, as I have Tahitian Noni Juice product range right now, I'll add mineral make up to the business line.

OK, enough for now. At least I have written something to ease my brain pain.
Need to go to sleep now, I'm having a cold.

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

PS: I'm so broken heart now!

Family

This also to remind myself of my goal in life. What's the point of working hard but you don't have time to share it with your beloved ones?

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by, "Oh excuse me please" was my reply.

He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
ater that day, cooking the evening m
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed; "Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."

I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

A CHAT WITH GOD (July 10, 2006)

Maybe this will remind me about life. After what I have been through for a couple of weeks, I need to be motivated and encouraged. Be my-normal-self again.

Only HIM can help me.

A CHAT WITH GOD

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I Am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still cant figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you Some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons(to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Bored, Stressed, Depressed (June 25, 2006)

These couples of days, I didn't feel myself. I'm not the normal Mirna that has enough strength, enough power, enough will to stand up after falling. I feel depressed, I feel bored with all of this.

Please, it doesn't mean that I'm bored living, no way! The opportunity to change it is out there.

At work, I feel I don't see any significant progress in the projects, not to mention some troubles with clients. I know I have to be patient and persistent dealing with all.

But, seriously.........I'm fed up.

I'm tired, physically and emotionally. I'm tired not having more time with my family, i.e. my dearest sister and my pretty niece. I'm tired not having time for myself, for my personal life (heck, what personal life???? LOL).
I'm tired to always obey to someone, to work under limitations (must not say this actually, because it makes you smart. You think, think, think), to be under someone's control.

I need freedom! I need to rearrange my life. Find what I have missed so far, find what I want to do. Will I be with the company next year? Do I want to be there? How long will I stay there? Will I have my own family soon? Will I get more money? (yeah, finally, the ultimate goal! Hehehe.......)

Touching Story with A Taxi Driver (Nov 4, 2007)

I was in Surabaya to accompany Dr. HF for tumor surgery using our ultrasonic aspirator.

To go to airport, I used taxi. It was still morning. On my way to airport, the taxi driver started a conversation with me.
He asked me the purpose in Surabaya, etc. He was a nice person, so I didn't mind entertain his conversation.
I told him about my work, my family (parents and sister). He was empathy to hear my story. He said I'm blessed.

Then he told me his story.
He regret for what he did in the past. He was a naughty boy, disobeyed parents, was a rebel. He went to the best school, didn't study good. He dropped out. While his siblings are college graduates. He felt embarrassed whenever the family gathers.
He's living difficult life now with his own family. His kids start going to school and all.

At the end, he prayed for me and wish me all the best. It was a touching moment.

The Corrs: What Can I Do

Ini kalo gue udah hopeless and desperate sama gebetan gue..... Kok loe gak ngeh ngeh seh kalo ada yg merhatiin loe, yg sayang sama loe, yg care sama loe? Man..... Open your eyes!

"What Can I Do"

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I say to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I change to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)

And love me... love me...

The Corrs: Goodbye

Ini lagu mengingatkan gue pada almarhum nyokap gue. Gue gak bakal bisa mengucapkan "goodbye" kepada beliau, kepada semua memori yang gue punya dengan beliau.

I miss her so much and every moment I remember her, I will have tears down from my eyes, like right now. Mom, may you have best place with Allah in heaven.

"Goodbye"

I never thought one day you'd be gone,
away forever more
No one can say, no one could explain
why you were taken

Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?

It's time to say goodbye
Block out the sun and pack up the sky
Don't let my tears start to make you cry
Each time I try to say my goodbye
Try to stop asking why

Tell me it's true, tell me there's something more
Another time for love
One day I'll know, one day I'll be there
Will you be waiting?

Oh where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?

It's time to say goodbye
Block out the sun and pack up the sky
Don't let my tears start to make you cry
Each time I try to say my goodbye
Try to stop asking why
Try to stop asking why... yeah...

Where are you now?
Could I get there somehow?

It's time to say goodbye
Block out the sun and pack up the sky
Don't let my tears start to make you cry
Each time I try to say my goodbye
Try to stop asking why, why
Try to say my goodbye